Quiet Encounters

journaled on 2.15.11 "On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night. Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your right hand upholds me." Psalm 63:6-8 I have went through a dark season. During this time, I have been so discouraged and felt so far from God. I would try to connect only to find myself frustrated and ready to throw in the towel. I did feel like He keep prompting me to wake up early. But I excused it away. I was working through a bible study on Ruth, but still feeling that my walk with the Lord was hard. I had went to a weekend conference, only to find myself so distracted that I could not focus. I felt that I was in a downward spiral. During this time, I attacked relationships. I hurt family and a very precious and close friend. I fed into the lies of Satan. I begin to believe that I was alone and I let bitterness take root and those roots are hard to kill. So I felt for some reason to look up"

"Command and teach these things. Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. " 1 Timothy 4:11-13 I am completely humbled and blown away. I keep asking the Lord to please give me the wisdom to protect and guard my children. It is a constant check when it comes to those little guys. If I do nothing else right, I want to teach those 3 precious angels to love the Lord with every ounce of their souls. I am by no means trying to toot my own horn. I am struggling if I am adequately equipped to shape these sweet babies. So about 3 weeks ago, Taylor came to me and was very discouraged. He has been ministering to children in his class and sharing with them that God loves them. A true evangelism heart. This has been going on all year. He has amazed me with his boldness and making me stret

"The righteous will flourish like a palm tree,they will grow like a cedar of Lebanon; planted in the house of the LORD, they will flourish in the courts of our God. " Psalm 92:12-13 I have been pondering my relationship with God and the different season that we have weathered together. I love this time of year and all the new green growth springing forth. I have the most beautiful hydrangea that I inherited when we bought our house. I have been reading about the best ways to care for them. I am amazed at how reflective these plants are to our walk with Christ. These plants look so bare and unattractive right now. I have recently been in that season. These are the times in our lives that we feel stripped. We so often mistaken these times as God is distant from us. I am more convinced than ever that this is a time that God is moving in a way to equip us. This season is hard, but this season is humbling and brings us back into balance. During this time, you cannot see what is g